A hope that should be gone.

I don't understand why my heart started to beat like crazy. How i got this anticipated feeling when I thought it was him. Its a feeling that should be gone by now. Its been a year yet for some reason I still wait, I still anticipate even though I know the outcome. I still hope we'll meet again even though we won't. I still wish he'd come back even though I don't need him anymore. Hes suppose to be a thing of the past yet he dwells in my present. I want this hope to disappear even if it means hurting, I'm willing to take the pain and regret. As long as hes not in my heart and hes not in my mind I'll sacrifice myself just to stop the hope that should be gone.